Pam: Once you understand this and fully embrace it, it is so
freeing – don’t forget you choose them before you came
Ann: I still don’t know if I believe that or not. My father was a
monster and I can’t wrap my mind around him being some
kind of friend who agreed to mess me up in this lifetime!
Pam: It’s all about the lessons we came here to learn this life time.
I understand completely where you’re coming from.
Ann: That’s the other thing I have a problem with. I understand
that that is a prevailing thought, about learning lessons. But
I think I believe that if we come back, we come back to
Victoria: You’re right, Ann, we do come back to help. But that help isn’t necessarily love, support or even warmth. The help often comes in a way that shows us exactly what we don’t want to be or have in our lives. You and your father chose each other. You offered each other an opportunity to be faced with lessons that you as individuals and as a family needed to learn. And he had as much to learn from you as you did from him. Your father didn’t agree to mess you up. He agreed to be your teacher and student. He took on a thankless job that isolated him emotionally and brought him no love or joy. He needed to learn how to break the cycle, how to live from love, not fear. From what you’ve said he didn’t learn it. It seems to me that you’re the one breaking your family’s generational cycle. Your life experience could have lead you down a dark path, but you’ve opened your mind and heart to light, love and joy. As difficult as things have been for you, you still manage to shine. You show compassion in your work, to your family and friends, and to the community that you share your knowledge with.
Ann: Thank you so much for your kind words! ❤️ You know, this is the first time I have even considered the possibility that my father might have had lessons he failed to learn. I was just thinking of the “I’ll play the villain” aspect. I still just think it’s such an ugly idea, to plan everything I have been through, in advance. I can’t even imagine agreeing to it. But I am open to changing my mind about it (in theory, LOL). So far, though, it still doesn’t feel like truth to me.
Victoria: What we go through in life is not planned out moment by moment in advance. The situation is planned with the people in place; the actions, the behaviors and the words are free will. We cannot control anyone else’s behavior, but we do get to choose how we respond. The point is: how do we respond to someone else’s bad behavior? For our own happiness, for our own soul’s growth and to break our generational trauma, we need to and can stop stop allowing our emotions and behavior to be dictated by someone else’s behavior. True emotional freedom comes from letting go of the knee-jerk responses that we learned from fear and opening ourselves to our true nature, opening ourselves to our heart.